Blackened Tutu

I put on the blackened tutu
Just to feel that I could dance.
I dismissed conceived ideas
On how to move and how to glance.
I just listed to the music
And it moved my body so,
There was no correct or wanting,
Rhythms swayed me to and fro.
Being at one with so much freedom
It is all I’ve ever sought.
And it angered me that seasons
Had been spent without such thought.
We all have our inner cages,
Further trapped by bars imposed.
And escaping can takes ages,
Or for some is never known.
Answers lead me to more questions,
Which I still don’t understand
Why such pain and all it’s stages
Life and joy within us drain.
I keep fighting for my moment
I keep seeking to find ease
But today I am exhausted
All my efforts fail to please.
And yes, I will get up tomorrow
And I will fight another day
I will find relief from sorrow,
Just I need this cry today.